the truth is that i don't know what to do now.

i pray for strength, Lord. only you can get me through this pain. this agony of not making it into nus medicine. it's like i've worked so hard to get some results. then falling at the last hurdle. it hurts. i won't label myself a failure, but it's sad. my dreams, no more. damn. God, please, do not forsake me.

oh damn. i have to do idoc duty this month. feels so much like i've been betrayed somewhat. it's sad. but then i suppose i've got to do it some time. AHHHH. having to stay overnight is not fun. and if get weekend even worse. what to do, the pawn doesn't say no. it says AHHHH.
oh i passed my advanced theory test today. cracked my brain for a few qns though. but the girl opposite my row was quite distracting. haha. too bad the test lasted too short for me. ok, at least now that's something out of the way. will be starting practical lessons next month only. and it's because of them being too packed.
getting tired of this type of life. not life, but life like this.

my life these days are just so packed i can hardly breathe. all the work'schoking me. ah is all i can say. ah. damn, i'm becoming so stale i won't eat myself if i were a piece of bread. give me a break, pls?